Life.

"my life's a show on God's TV, the world an audience, watching me.."

so wake me, shake me, keep me sharp!

That's what I need God to do. My life's a show, telecasting on the TV of God. Everyone's watching.
So what about this TV thingy? Let me explain:

For any dramas or movies, you have a production and a product. Life's a movie marathon that will stretch over a period of many many years. As many of you have already knew, I celebrated my 19th birthday and which means, I've been producing and telecasting this life for 19 years.
And just like any other dramas, life have a wide range of actors and performers. Calefares, supportive or leading roles. Of course - The star here is yours sincerely - LK.

Anyone of these roles have to be present to make this movie a success, whether big or small, for long or for short, antagonist or protagonist. None of them can be missing from this big and important film. And the complicating part is this - a person will usually fills 2 roles. Actor and Audience. And they are really not mutually exclusive. Example - Audience watch this movie and think that it sucks, he decided to pop in and speak into my life to change it.(from this moment onwards, he became an actor and not an audience anymore). Get it?

Some audiences truly meant well and wants the best of you. I thank God that I do have these audiences in my life, where I can rely on them and depend on them to disciple me and to mentor my life and my movie such that it would be a glorifying movie at the end of it.
Most of the audiences are just those who "watch and leave" kind of audiences not leaving anything behind. They are neither constructive nor destructive.
The last kind of audience is the type I want to touch on more this time. The meanie audiences or perhaps, critics. They watch your life and criticize about anything and everything without really offering any solution or help to your problems. They have comments about anything and everything. Examples for you?

Big car = Waste money, materialistic.
Small car = So fake! Act poor only...
Doesn't talk = EMO!
Talk = Noisy.
Treat you to a meal = Hao Lian ar!
Doesn't treat you = Kiam Siap ar!
Say nice words = Flirt!(shocking isn't it)
Say mean words = not loving...
Call them = disturb them
Doesn't call them = reject them

and many many more....

So friends, how do we please everyone all the time? When a person agrees, another one is bound to disagree.
So of course, most of the times, you'll feel that they are really not looking at your good points and achievements but they are FOCUSING on your flaws and your NGs. They just want to pin point and magnify your weakness and flaws. Reasons? Well, we've have another thesis some other day to discuss on that. Probably physiology will help us to find out more.

Anyway, my point ain't this. Well. I gotta admit that in this movie called LIFE. I've had a pretty good amount of NGs. MANY MANY in facts. Enough to make me wants to quit. They are ugly, shameful pasts or mistakes that I made along the way. Things that I would want them to be kept in the dark forever. My guilt, fears, shames and many more. You can identify them in your movie too.

You have to understand this. That even though you're the STAR actor and perhaps even the director, there are many many things that you can change. But there are even more things that you can't change. Especially the mistakes or the critics.

However, we have a capable producer cum director. J team production.
His movies never fails the expectations of the audiences. His name is Jesus.
No matter what happened, what's happeneing or what will happen? As long as the producer is still in charge of this movie, you can be assured that it will be a wonderful piece of movie and the end of the day. So! Instead of focusing on the calefares, or the supporting or leading roles. Or the different type of audiences and allowing them to intoxicate and wears you out. Focus on the One with the most authority and capbility. I shut my big mouth and stop telling the captain what to do when my plane hits a turbulence. Why? Because he knows better.

Jesus - He knows better. In a matter of fact, He knows BEST.

do not give up on this piece of movie yet, just give it to the One who knows best...