Gifts.

"the wages of sin is death but the gift of God is eternal life."

One prayer that I will always remind myself to pray is for God to open up my eyes to see and recognize the blessings in my life. Not forgetting His goodness just because the dirt of live and covered my eyes. And one thing I realize is that God, is always giving gifts. Naturally, He couldn't love me without giving, because giving is a byproduct of true love.

A gift... It is something we do not deserve but still got it anyway.
A gift is a mom's concern toward her son when he's a manager.. or a toilet cleaner.
A gift is a morning kiss on the husband's cheek even though he scolded his wife the night before because he was drunk.
A gift is forgiveness offered.
A gift is a member paying for the refreshments after our meetings.
A gift is a friend being by your side throughout your darkest days.
A gift is a restoration of dream, a reconciliation of broken relationship and a rejuvenated vision. A gift is a Father's love. A love in my life, a love in your life.

Through all these little and seemingly insignificant things, I realized that God is still sitting on His throne after all. I realized that God is the same yesterday, today and will be the same forever. I realized that God is good in good times, and good in bad times.
I pray hard that my eyes will be much more opened to not just the injustices, loses, setbacks and tribulations. But also the little, yet powerful things that are happening all around me, defining the character of God.

Most of the time, we do not doubt the existence of God. We doubted the character of God.
We doubted if God would forgive us, we doubted if God would love us, we doubted if God would help us. We doubted His character. Our faith in the Shepherd collapse when our world did.

But, I will make a decision today.

I will trust in the Lord, counting my blessings and being one myself. Whether sunny days or rainy days. Whether life had offered me its goodness or its harshness.

I will bless the Lord with all my soul...