boy to man

"a soldier job is not to die for his country, but to make the other fellow die for his..."

I'm just a few hours away from entering into a new phrase of my life.
the phrase that most dread of, but some proud of.
I will be enlisted into the Singapore Armed Forces.
Finally, it is my turn to serve the national service. Finally, the day has arrive.

Well, I really thank God for the cell groups and Cat.
She organized a dinner, where we all ate yuki yaki and of course, I was blessed.
And the cg gave me a gift, a flip flop.
Cheryl's mom gave me a t-shirt.
Cheryl and Pamela rushed down to join us for fellowship after work.
Carita, Sharon and Lulu came down too.

Alycia, Qianqi, Pamela, Yanbing, Ting, Cat, Jonathan, Yongsheng, Yongheng, Henry, Jieqi were there to eat my "last supper".

I really felt blessed.
Apart from the gifts, I will bring into my camp with me the fond memories of friends and family, the well wishes of everybody, and the strength that comes from the unseen power of prayer...

But of course, as time draws nearer, I'm starting to feel a little insecure and perhaps a little worry.
What's it like to be in there?
What kind of mate will I meet?
Will my family be alright?
What about my friends?
Will I be able to excel?
Can I do it right?
How about staying focus?
Can I reall resist the temptations?

too many fears and insecurities...
hence, what I realize is this:

As the time draws nearer, I realize I need God more than ever before.